Wednesday, August 4, 2010

where was love when i needed ?





i just wanna thank the Lord , for keeping me safe even though i go through these disasters in life , and although i'm not the best around , i know i had already put in my best and it was just not meant to be . you can say that i didn't care , but i'm sure God knew i did , because i wouldn't be on bad terms with my mum if not for this .

i'm tired of loving , and it's not just normal tired , it's to the extent that i hate loving . i put in so much on you , but where did all of it go ? nowhere . it's to the extent where i don't have the strength to move my muscle anymore , and i hate it .

people ask me very often these days , am i attached ? am i attached ? even random people ask , am i attached ? i tell you , NO i am not attached , i lost faith in relationships , and i'll never go into a relationship , not when i'm schooling , not when i'm still such a fool . i'll start being observant from now , and if you deserve every part of me , then you'll get it . if you don't , then please shun me .

what did i ever do to deserve all this ? i've been bad , but do i really need to be punished like this ? /: i've had enough . they call in trials i guess , thank God for cheryl and nicolette , who teaches me so much 'bout life . they'll be my regret if i was to change the place i call holy ground , because they mean so much to me ;

i realise being in a relationship and being happy is a huge difference . although relationships bring you happiness , but will you last ? i lost two , to one , because of love , and i will protect every friend i have like treasure , nobody's taking them away from me anymore . being happy is something different , and simpler . you smile everyday , that's about it , happiness .

people tell me i'm emo-ing , but i know i'm not . it's just the happy me is having a break , from all the sadness . i'm 24/7 happy , it's just how happy i am . don't worry buds , i'm fine , very fine (; God , i pray you'd bring the normal me back .

I'll treat you the way you deserve to be treated.
So don't judge me for what I do.
Judge me after knowing the reasons behind it

- People Seek Happiness , I Create Them

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