i ask myself today " boonkiat , is it worth being sad over this ? where is the energetic boonkiat that everyone laughs at ? " and i realise i've been silent these days , maybe i'm letting fatigue overtake me too much , but no , it's not gonna happen . my tuesday was good , finally , but it started poorly /:
reached school at 729am , just a minute from being late , and skipped anthem , pledge and hymn singing . ms cheong called me to the back just before assembly ended , and i argued with her . she's only gonna return my phone when my mum goes parent-teacher conference , pfft :@ i totally defended myself , amazingly :x
history was all about writing , after storming into class , and i almost fell asleep , with the comfty wall beside me . it was quite okay , except the fact that mrs singh nags to much -.-" hahah chemistry was fun , with the funky five doing what they do best , talking crap :P got 9/10 for test , super happy :D heheh
recess was good , enjoyed one of the best times i've had in soccer ever since tourney started (: was late for video analysis but it was a fun time , and i've to buck up , real hard to get into next year's team :x decided to go dhoby after video , with yu sung and rudi (: they wanted to watch a movie there , and i was gonna meet min ying and aric for lunch ;D heheheh
lunch was great , though it was just merely a short 30 minutes with them . they gave me a card based on my previous blog post , and i'm really encouraged by their care and concern (: rudi call and ask if i wanna watch inception , at 240pm ; and since it was a great movie based on what i heard , and i haven't watched a movie since karate kid ;
inception was not as complicated as it seems , mr khairul said i should watch it with a clear and open mind , and i guess i did ;D heheh though i still have a 'lil queries about the movie , but i enjoyed it , with my best buds (: slacked around cathay , before meeting minying again ; i wish i get inception as well , and i'll wake up losing memory , hah
sat at macs plaza sing to talk , and it was fun (: went to lavender after that , as she left for dance and i headed home (: she's really happy today , since i was the master planner of all her smiles these days ;P hahah dinner was pleasing and i'm back to online nights (: the days just seem to be getting brighter :D gonna have magnum treat from mr singh and bbq at rishi's place on friday , hahah champions have their rewards i guess (: now i'm gonna concentrate on studies , since i haven't been doing well , and with you not around to distract , i will do well ;
called nicolette just now , and i just thought it out . why should i care about you ? my main priorities are people like leila , nicolette , fiona , cheryl and those that deserve my respect and attention , not you , not a heartless figure like you . but still i think i'll change church , i can't bring myself to see you , it really disgusts me . i really gave myself a chance to savage this , but no , you don't want it to work out . please do take everyone that you need to grab before i make friends again , or else i'll end up on the losing end again .
i've found myself company that don't require so much perfection , and are just happy with life . it's so simple . why can't it be like that with you ? i'm not trying to gain sympathy or whatsoever , but this is my blog , i say what i wanna say . i don't need people on my side , i don't need you or you . i'm gonna live life even higher without you and you , because it was low when you two were around . last time , i'd beg for a chance for this friendship , now i don't give a glance at it , that's how i take this . i cared when nobody looked , and when people saw it , i had already given up . what you do is what you do , don't get me involved . and thanks , for letting me lose trust in friends , especially best friends . you can hurt me for all you want , but you don't steal my friends .
remember , i didn't make this happen , your selfishness did
- Dealing With Situations Gauges Your Level Of Maturity
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