well since my formspring had attracted a hater to criticise me about what i have done , let me just clarify things up today . i don't want this post to be of offence to anyone though , and i'm not gonna point fingers on anyone on this post .
it all started back in january , when i met her . we hit off quite well , and yeah we became friends . started to be closer friends , since we had a clique , formed with members like benji , lee , aric , me and her . we had really great adventures and times together , and yeah everything was good . then came upon a time when aric and i were the best of friends . but he went away , got attached with her . we ( the rest of the clique ) was 100% fine with it , and we didn't protest or whatsoever . but he drifted away . he hid , he lied and did all the silliest of stuff and there was a conflict rising . we approached him and told him about what's wrong and we seeked improvements . ( we being lee , benji and i ) but he wouldn't listen , he insisted that there wasn't anything wrong . he was really stubborn . this went on , and eventually they broke up .
aric came back to his senses after that , and yeah case closed . we got closer after that , doing all the retard stuff that friends do , and i really enjoy her presence . she was one of the best thing that happened to me , at that time that is . i need not ask for more , because we were rocking our lives at the very highest . i put all i had on her , because i know she was one that would last long in my life , at that time that is . we had long night convos , weekly dinners and all the others , just to spend time with each other . we sought each other with our problems , and talk about the past , where we did silly stuffs . lovely texts , warm hugs . this was friendship at it's best , but it was at that time that is . then , in came bernard , a really great friend from hockey , and i brought him to know church , to know her . they got closer , we got further . that's to sum up what would be a really long story to write . i didn't mind , because both of them were my greatest of friends .
but bernard was hiding something . i'm not offending , but he lies . he lies to meet her . it's not that i'm blaming or what , but why ? why lie ? i just wanna enjoy friendship with you two . but i lost faith in our friendship as their strengthened . i lost contact , and after all , i wanted to be friends with her , after they got even closer . we talked august , but it never came for us . i don't want to walk in and out again . i know it's all me , my wrong . i never pointed blame at anyone for this , but what about her ? she'd talk about the times i spend with other people , when i had never gone out with them before . i took all the blame , and yeah i know it's me , seriously . but i lost two best friends to her , but i know it's their fault and my fault that it happens . and i realised one thing , that my grades never rise when i spent time with her . i'm not pointing at anything but i think it would be better if i left ? i didn't need a second chance after i straightened my thoughts . because i know , that the future lied somewhere else . i don't expect sympathy , don't expect anything . but that hater , if you're reading this , try losing two best friends , to someone you really love , because i believe you'll succumb to it as well . i'm no hero , but this is my side of the story . i'm don't look for love as much as she does , maybe that's why there's sucha reaction when i lost my besties to her .
ask around , that particular hater , and you'll see the verdict on this . i apologise vevien , for always leaving without reasons that seem appropriate . i'm just a totally blank guy when it comes to these , and yeah thanks and thanks again for all over the past 6 months . i don't deserve you , i know . but i believe i gave my best when i could , i'm not sure about you , but i had a great time through this . i would say .. we both left ? fair enough ? i would love to be your friend , but i guess there's a past full of hate and miscommunications , so i'd just leave it up to you .
please don't mind if your name is mentioned here , and no offence meant , it's just my portion of my story .
loves ,
goggles (;
- The brightest things in life doesn't always shine forever
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