taught with care

whoosh , it has been a really nice day today (: school was crazy , but yeah that's what school's are for i guess ;P celebrations was retarded , and post-school activities were tiring but overall , it has been a thrilling tuesday (;

day started off being late with bryan , and we sneaked back into the courtyard , super fun :P joined linesh , rudi and titus at the canteen for a drink , before the sort-of surprise at the hall . everyone was doing the "jalan besar" beat , and yeah we joined in too :P the surpirse was really silly , no offence though . we had to sing , and man we could only hear ms deborah's singing , seriously -.-" went back to class , and ee ter + sean + mervin performed the only exception by paramore , super nice :D we had free time after that , until 1015am , where school was released (:

met rudi and yu sung after that , headed for city hall to get my shoes (; i was really shag , and yeah walking from NEL to NSL is really long man /: got my predators though , then a nice meal at subway . accompanied them to lan , but left to go home and nap . had a 3 hour nap and yeah fully charged (; i'm stuck on FMH , it's really challenging :P dinner was good and the last episode of unriddle is irritating ! is there a sequel or what ! /:

daily prayer : Father , thank You for working on my heart , i can sense the change . i pray that You'll continue your wondrous works and make me a whole new guy . pray for N441 , Lei Zone that they prosper under you , and that a mega revival will happen . i pray for directions and may You grant me wisdom , amen C:

- Trying your best is the least you can do .

Moving On

You don’t want to move on . You don’t want to let go. Because you feel that if you let go , you’ll lose hold of your life . You’ll lose control . You think you’ll go crazy .

But no .

You can move on, you just don’t want to , whether you know it or not. Moving on doesn’t mean you’ll lose control . Moving on doesn’t mean you’ve given up . Moving on doesn’t mean you’re weak . Moving on means you’re strong . Strong enough to face your past and accept it . Strong enough to conquer it and focus on your future . Strong enough to control your life .

- Moving on can be easy , can be hard . It can be over very soon , it can be over after a long time . It can hurt , but it can also be a meaningful one . It's really up to YOU to choose how YOU want to move on .

my side of it

well since my formspring had attracted a hater to criticise me about what i have done , let me just clarify things up today . i don't want this post to be of offence to anyone though , and i'm not gonna point fingers on anyone on this post .

it all started back in january , when i met her . we hit off quite well , and yeah we became friends . started to be closer friends , since we had a clique , formed with members like benji , lee , aric , me and her . we had really great adventures and times together , and yeah everything was good . then came upon a time when aric and i were the best of friends . but he went away , got attached with her . we ( the rest of the clique ) was 100% fine with it , and we didn't protest or whatsoever . but he drifted away . he hid , he lied and did all the silliest of stuff and there was a conflict rising . we approached him and told him about what's wrong and we seeked improvements . ( we being lee , benji and i ) but he wouldn't listen , he insisted that there wasn't anything wrong . he was really stubborn . this went on , and eventually they broke up .

aric came back to his senses after that , and yeah case closed . we got closer after that , doing all the retard stuff that friends do , and i really enjoy her presence . she was one of the best thing that happened to me , at that time that is . i need not ask for more , because we were rocking our lives at the very highest . i put all i had on her , because i know she was one that would last long in my life , at that time that is . we had long night convos , weekly dinners and all the others , just to spend time with each other . we sought each other with our problems , and talk about the past , where we did silly stuffs . lovely texts , warm hugs . this was friendship at it's best , but it was at that time that is . then , in came bernard , a really great friend from hockey , and i brought him to know church , to know her . they got closer , we got further . that's to sum up what would be a really long story to write . i didn't mind , because both of them were my greatest of friends .

but bernard was hiding something . i'm not offending , but he lies . he lies to meet her . it's not that i'm blaming or what , but why ? why lie ? i just wanna enjoy friendship with you two . but i lost faith in our friendship as their strengthened . i lost contact , and after all , i wanted to be friends with her , after they got even closer . we talked august , but it never came for us . i don't want to walk in and out again . i know it's all me , my wrong . i never pointed blame at anyone for this , but what about her ? she'd talk about the times i spend with other people , when i had never gone out with them before . i took all the blame , and yeah i know it's me , seriously . but i lost two best friends to her , but i know it's their fault and my fault that it happens . and i realised one thing , that my grades never rise when i spent time with her . i'm not pointing at anything but i think it would be better if i left ? i didn't need a second chance after i straightened my thoughts . because i know , that the future lied somewhere else . i don't expect sympathy , don't expect anything . but that hater , if you're reading this , try losing two best friends , to someone you really love , because i believe you'll succumb to it as well . i'm no hero , but this is my side of the story . i'm don't look for love as much as she does , maybe that's why there's sucha reaction when i lost my besties to her .

ask around , that particular hater , and you'll see the verdict on this . i apologise vevien , for always leaving without reasons that seem appropriate . i'm just a totally blank guy when it comes to these , and yeah thanks and thanks again for all over the past 6 months . i don't deserve you , i know . but i believe i gave my best when i could , i'm not sure about you , but i had a great time through this . i would say .. we both left ? fair enough ? i would love to be your friend , but i guess there's a past full of hate and miscommunications , so i'd just leave it up to you .

please don't mind if your name is mentioned here , and no offence meant , it's just my portion of my story .

loves ,

goggles (;

- The brightest things in life doesn't always shine forever

sunday , perfect

i love my sundays . they really allow me to slow things down and just chill out a bit , with the epic angeline , cheryl , nicolette and eileen always letting me smile with their words and actions (: heh

had family breakfast as usual , at sims drive , which was nice (; headed for service after that . seeing the three gorgeous ladies sarah , liyun and fiona in their grad suits , i feel really envious , i also wanna go sot someday :D heheh and service was good , pastor kong preached a 'lil on saul :D we had a crazy time for post-service , as fiona came back :P hahahah hope she likes all the gifts we got her ! ((:

went to airport for lunch , accompanied angeline for each a cup :D she is really funny , yesterday she was saying how bad hansheng was , when he was just behind her , hahahah :P ohh and theLEIMUSOS WON ! WOOTS ^^ so proud of legend lim , natasha , weide , jin yi and verena ! ((: they really rocks the zone's socks i believe ! ;D

macs was good , and hansheng , if you're reading this , please eat more and sleep more ! or else malnutrition eh ! loves (: heheh

went home with wilson after that , super shagggg /: took a nap , family gathering at uncle jason's place , and now , liverpool match , come on reds , gotta win it . on my next post , i'll address about my formspring , about some people asking some stuff , should be mentioning names , such that i clarify the facts ;

daily prayer : Father , there's something stopping me from getting back to You , but i don't know what is it /: i pray You'd remove that obstacle , because nothing and seriously nothing beats Your love , Your presence . i pray for perseverance in this fight , and i know i'll overcome it . thanks for all the blessings you place in my life , pray You'd protect them and me as well . guide me , direct me , all these through Jesus' most precious name , amen C:

- Sometimes it isn't all about winning ~

i want you back

you were here with me over the saddest and happiest moments of my life , through rain and storm . you're so small , yet so big in your own way . i depended on you too much i guess , and now you're gone . i guess i'll continue to wait for you to come back , because i really can't live without you . your departure was so sudden , i was off guard , and now i'm left with nothing . you left a hole which no other can mend . the first moment i saw you , i fell in love with you , and i started to learn to cherish things . you helped me capture images life could never see twice , you were just perfect in my eyes . i will see you soon , and i can't wait to . my dear blackberry , i really really miss you . my mum misses you too , heh ;P

a new beginning

i shaved today , to start again . my old hair has so much troubles , so much sadness . though this is silly , but i think it kinda motivates ? heh (:

thursday was always relaxing and it was relaxed today . all the lessons today were slackish and yeah music is super fun , everyone laughing at my singing -.-" hope the teacher's day thing goes well . met damon and yuan after school , went to street to find that there wasn't any ball , so we headed home after rudi came to join us . collected money from mum , and went for haircut , with damon . i feel cooler now , as in physically cooler , heh (:

went for fellowship with nicolette after that . at just acia , dhoby . was really stuck with my FMH2010 , because it's new , heh :P sorry nic ! didn't really fellowship ! :$ had some neoprints shots before basketball at arcade . went home after that , capping off a super chilled thursday . man i miss angeline , hahah and the rest of N441 , can't wait for saturday !

super lazy to blog these days , i don't have time /: sorry if there's no posts ! D: Oh and the fonts , err bear with it ! x:

- Learn from yesterday , Live for today , Hope for tomorrow

it runs in my blood

today started very scarily . i woke up to a bad dream , that i got shot , and that i only had a few hours left on Earth . i dreamt of how i spent my last moments on Earth . i thought , how am i gonna face God after dying ? i'm not gonna face him like this , i haven't rooted myself deep enough into His words . it really inspired me , to go an extra mile , to bring people to church , to read His words , to be more like him . come to think of it , i fear death , just like any other , but i wanna have a go at life , i wanna live to the fullest .

school was really fun , especially during history ~ hahah jerald stared at me like how jiale does it , and he stared at mrs singh :P CME was cool , we learnt weiqi , a type of chess which is getting more and more popular , which is really difficult ! /: school ended after staying back to carry benches for mr au-yong , and i went to street again , skipping maths remedial .

ruled street with my shots , and yeah i wanna play soccer for a long time to come . i wanna build a career out of it , but no , singapore roots won't bring me far /: argh , but oh well , i wanna be a rich guy ;D so soccer is another issue :P hahahah lost a bottle match and won one , so yeah it was a quite equal day . saw a team self-destruct , because one despised another . i hate it , and i'll by all means prevent it from happening in my life . played until quite late , before heading home with rudi and jeremy .

mum told me tuition was postponed , and of course , i'm happy that i don't have tuition :P dinner was plain , but nice :D spending time with family is really nice ~ there's fellowship with nicolette tomorrow , not sure if i can make it . really really miss their company , i guess they really bring the best out of me .

God is good , all the time . All the time , God is good ((:

and , i'm into SNSD , got andre to help me get some of their cards , hahah i feel retarded again , getting addicted to these kinda stuff :P taeyeon and yoona rocks big time :P hahahah

i use to run from these , but now i'm learning from it .

i wanna celebrate and live my life ~

- Success Breeds Success

small boy , big dreams

i'm 14 this year , but i have really really big dreams , just like everybody else . everytime i think about being what i am in my dreams , i feel duper inspired to get it , to study and work hard for it .

school was good today , just like usual other days . went to street after school , along with benji , after a start-stop study group with jerald . jerald had soccer training , so we stayed and watched awhile . got bored , so we decided to get some kicks ourself (; went against some big boys , after owning the tennis game with hard shots , and we got bodied , big time . they play really rough , and benji struggled . i taught him based on what i knew , really hope to see him in the same league as me , not saying i'm super good though , heh x: went home after that , and dinner was good . really sore , my muscles haven't been worked to this extent of being used everyday since hockey finals , so i'm taking time to adapt .

i'm really enjoying my buds company , though i always busted aric , but there's a lot of love and care between us , love them all ((: hahah and i made a collage for those i miss , and yeah hope they like it (; really miss n441 , even though it's been just two weeks ..

my next thing : clear off all my debts , i owe people loads of money , need to clear them before i can start making my dreams work . i want to get what i want on my own , i don't wanna rely on my parents too much . i wanna get a camera , an iTouch , and some variety of stuff , hope i can work my way into getting them (;

daily prayer : Father God , i just want to thank you for everything and everyone you've placed in my life . as what i've said , i need the inspiration to drive me on Lord , i pray you'll grant me what's needed so that i can shine for you . i pray for directions as to what you have for me . thanks and thanks again , all through Jesus' name , amen C:

I've done my part in loving you.
Giving you the best I could ever give,
Treating you the best i ever can.
But still, I couldn't stop you from leaving .

- sometimes the truth makes everything else seem like a lie

she shines in me

man i miss eileen a lot , dedicating this post to her . really love her passion to do stuff , she's sucha good friend . my dear pincher , i promise i will seeyouu at least by saturday okay ! (: really miss your presence ! nobody fight for my chocolates with me at home ! :P ever since april till now , you never fail to put a smile on my face (: heheheh can't wait to see you again foodie (; let's continue to motivate each other in our studies ya ! heheh can't wait to disturb you about the dead sea salt again ! whee~ :P

Loves ,

Gogglesboy ( With Lotsa' Love ;D)

Boonkiat , get up !

sunday : a really sleepy day , i was sick . missed service , missed n441 , missed Lei zone /: i got charged up , yeah sunday went like this . no family gathering , so i stayed home all day long , with my dear psp (; heh ; the cubs lost to haiti , lightfoot was off i guess , bad luck singapore , and fashah was a blur toot -.-"

daily prayer : God , i need your help , i pray for strength in everything i do , because you're my pillar i lean on . i pray that you'll be here to guide me and direct me . thank you for everything , pray all this through your precious son Jesus Christ , amen .

- whatever makes you feel bad , leave it . whatever makes you smile , keep it .

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monday : today wasn't that bad , but still , it was bad ): i felt uneasy , jerald also . we were running , but so , so tired . i slept more than usual yesterday , wonder what's wrong /: i failed history , and that gust of inspiration from heaven comes down , i'll pass my history for end-of year ! at least a B4 ! had to go for history remedial , then join the tuition program , super tiring . went to dhoby to get earpiece , as i spoilt rudi's one x: hahah dinner's on takeaway , and there's 'pool tonight , can;t wait :D

daily prayer : Father , come put inspiration in me , that's all that i need now . i need inspiration to take off what i dream of . i want to go to a jc , i want to be a successful man , i wanna be a millionaire :D i pray for your strength and energy , and that your wisdom will guide me through and allow me to shine in the bright light . pray all these through Jesus' name , amen !

- enjoy life , there's plenty of time to be dead

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come on , i've gotta stand up again . so what if i fell ? i'm not taught to give up , and i'll continue fighting even if i'm all messed up . i've done enough of bad stuff in life , i wanna be on the good side , and win on the good side . i've the sudden inspiration to do well , as always . i'm sick , sick of you two . you don't deserve . i used to dwell on it like a fool , but no more . success is all i think of now , success in academics , financials , christian walk , family and friends . i must . it might seem too early to dream , but successful people ain't normal , as rishi says . i don't lean on one anymore , i lean on many , i lean on my team , without you that is , all you think of is love love love . mr tan says there's remorse , i think it's not remorse , it's pure act . you have never even tried . your brothers look down on you man . hate me for all you want , this is MY blog anyways .

let the good times roll

saturday night fevers are missing , and i miss the old saturdays .

today was crappy at first , but it ended off well i should say (: cancelled tuition at trevor's in the morning , feeling the full effects of night training last night . was suppose to meet minying and lee for lunch at 12pm , but i only turned up at 1pm , sorry lee ! D: had a good lunch and , dessert for the second straight day :D heheheh aric said everyone would be late for the party , so we slacked around , popular and station staircase ;D finally went off when aric told us that they reached botanical gardens ,

and trust me , don't have your party there , lee and i had to walk so long to the place they were at , i was tired , frustrated . but it was benji's day , so i should be putting on that smile . cheered up and played around with xavi , damon , lee , jerald (: it was a really nice outing i would say , more of this would do good . dinner at long john silver's , plaza sing . jerald was really really funny (: i had a good night . went home , read the book mr tan lent me and i really enjoy it .

xavier was talking to me about brother bond , super cute :D hahah i really think that aric , lee , damon , jerald , xavier and i would be the best buds in time to come . this is really nice because we're schoolmates , we see each other daily ((: these are the people i should build my care on , because they matter more than what i've experienced . i can't stand to lose anymore , i chose these company , i stay with it . who needs relationships when you have people like these ? i guess i was stubborn back then , i didn't see the world enough . thank God i opened up .

there's service tomorrow , i miss City Harvest .

daily prayer : God , my life is still unknown , i pray you'd come and put inspiration on it . i have faith in You Lord , and i know you'll do what's needed . i pray that my heart will be open for Your presence . watch over me Lord , pray for guidance and directions . and that my family will be healed by your touch , especially my father , amen (:

- Opportunity is missed by most people because it is dressed in overalls and looks like work .

watch me shine

i like the book mr tan lent me , a lot (: it explains mega loads just on the Lord's Prayer , things that we won't bother thinking of .

today wasn't that good on the start , went to school late with rudi , and we had to get late slips /: mr jeffrey owned me big time in the time-out room , sheesh -.-" was late for math , test during english , and yeah that was he highlights of school . had soccer for the 3rd consecutive day running , but today was a minor one . went for dessert with jerald after that , and mango milk ice rocks to the max. (: went home , packed and left for CCAB , and yeah have to buck up on hockey asap , if i am to make it into next year's team .

mr singh gave me yog cards , super happy . now i've got prepaid cards , whee~ activated 3 cards , but i think it won't come into much use x: dinner at home was good , and i've got trevor tomorrow , 9am ): i'm super sore , and tired . shucks ; benji's birthday tomorrow , i'll try to make it i guess x:

anyways , HAPPY BIRTHDAY BENJI ((: you're always there to hear my cock-up jokes and just laugh at them . you're such a worthy brother . remember those times we had before we became friends ? hahahahah loveyou benji , :D

i will get what i want . i put too much time into this friendship , but now things are changed , you can enjoy all you want , i'm carving my own future .

daily prayer : O God , i seek for a discipline and humble attitude . i need to commit more to You and i pray you'd be my source of strength . thank you for all you've done , pray for guidance and mercy , amen

- A Team Comprises Of Many Difference Forging A Similarity.

burning out

man i've been doing so much running these days , and i've got like gallons of phlegm in my lungs , making my running miserable /:

thursday , the most peaceful and free day of the week . i had fun in school , biology was fun , and yeah aric flared up because of the bullies made in lee and me :P HAHAHAH school was just so tiring , sheesh ; d&t was expecting so much from a kuku guy like me , who has never touched hammers and mallets for design purposes -.-" soccer again after school , and yeah , i've deprove , big time ): went to toa payoh with rudi after that , checking out stuff and buying stuff , simply just slacking around .

i'm attracted to the youth olympics card , i wanna get the $28 one , and i think rudi also wants to get it :D heheheh it's like a credit card , which i can use ! ((: gosh , i'll go bankrupt if it happens , but who cares ! :P hahahah ; benji's birthday at botanical gardens on saturday , but it's always raining these days -.-" i guess i will go if it rains then :P

dinner was good , and i'm super shag . gonna rest early tonight . can't wait for tomorrow , there's pe . and khalsa training , gonna touch some sticks after that dream final , finally (:

i'm getting slower in pace , and i hope i'd be able to slow down life as well , and see what's the best for me .

you ain't irreplaceable ~

daily prayer : God , i know i've gotta get more rooted into your family . I pray for mercy for i've done wrong . i pray i'll be so deep into Your word that i change , totally . i've gotta be more disciplined , more focus . i pray for strength and energy to last through the night , as i reflect on what i've done . thank you for what You've done in my life , i continue to pray for directions , show me the path , to Your way . amen .

- Your willingness to do something to change shows that you want to be better than now

i keep them in a jar

gosh , i'm deproving in soccer , someone come save me please /:

wednesday's good , i totally played my lungs out in soccer today after school . school was good too , everyone's asking me for help in math , i feel really good , it's like the feel of bring the U-14 champion rewind :D heheheh

soccer after school , before meeting nicolette at dhoby for bible study , at long last (: it was a really good one , at just acia . met leila and sheila for an instant , before the girls went on their ways . was suppose to meet rudi after that , but he somehow disappeared , so i went home . uncle's long time employee treated us dinner , and whoosh it was nice (: tomorrow should be dreadful , with chinese and d&t in line . argh

i'm blogging very little these days , really short of time /: i hope you dear readers like the fonts , i think it's very cute :D heheheh

i'm really eager to serve , but there's a part of me holding part , and i believe i'll kill it off asap (; this life , seems to be the best i'll get . no problems , just relaxed and chilled . life is going by a day-by-day basis , i won't think of the future , i live every moment , thinking about how i can make the best out of it . come to think of it , it's not worth moaning everyday ,

daily prayer : God , thank You for allowing me that super productive bible study today , i pray i'd be able to spend more quality time with you , now that i've more knowledge . i pray for directions and guidance from You , that you'd come and show me the way . pray for Your presence , amen C:

- A Prayer A Day Keeps The Devil Away