the way it should be

life has been very naughty , it hasn't been as ideal as expected . this is so not my life , and i want my life back , as soon as possible .

my way of life goes like this :

1. Most Importantly , A Happy Life

2. A Mega Close Walk With God

3. A Loving Family That Supports Your Every Action

4. Filled With Awesome Friends , Really Really Awesome Friends Who Are 24/7 Reliable

5. A Good Job In The Market Place , A Loving Girlfriend / Wife And An Awesome Bunch Of Kids

6. Not Much Problems In Relationships , Easy-Going With People

7. Enjoying , The Way Life Is

that's how i roughly want life to go , but point number 1 is currently missing , point number 2 also . point number 3 is there , but i need to make wiser moves , i know my mum wants to see me grow up and do well , need some straightening of thoughts there . point number 4 is low , but of course there's linesh , rudi and these kinda epic people , who makes you feel you own the world . point number 5 is under construction , i need this , because that's how i planned my life . point number 6 , hah i guess it's just not there with some people ?

i'm missing something , for a long time , and that is happiness . it has been absent for awhile , but i'm on the verge of finding it back , i believe . where on earth is it ? maybe i expect a lot , thus i'm not being able to enjoy /: and then there's discipline , i really need it , it has never been with me ever since , 10 years old ? i think i'm a 'lil more mischief in character , but i can control when needed , it's just that small part of me , being the opposition . i need to acquire these 2 first , and a lot more others , before point number 7 comes in . my past life used to have all these , but it was a bad life , and now that i found good company , why can't i make the best out of it and be even better ?

tuesday was awesome , trevor tuition in the morning , then benji's place with jerald from 245pm till 8pm , study before a super tough time on the xbox . dinner was good , now , i'm still trying to conquer my psp , i can't clear the NSF thing ! /: sportsmania tomorrow , can't wait (: and err gugan , i love you :P

- friends go a long way