i don't wanna fall out

life hasn't been the best these days . feeling super tired , and exams just finished , i'm supposed to be enjoying everything . but no , i'm gonna start a new lease of life . i cannot stay in the same place forever and yeah i've gotta start planning and mapping out what i want . consulted nicolette last night and yeah i don't want to just be empty talking , i want to make my words count . i didn't do as well as expected for my exams , and i will hate myself for that , but now that i'm free of school life , i have to start shaping my life , to be more god-like and i need to get deeper rooted in the House of God .

i might be sounding naive and stupid here but no , this is kinda serious . the lively boonkiat has to stop and look for awhile . i have done so much sinning in these 14 years , and i really feel guilty about it . 15 doesn't sound like it's ideal to start changing , because secondary 3 is when we go do all the fun things . but i've gotta start early . i need to be discipline , need to stop some stuff , need to block out some people and yeah life has gotta start gettin' better .

and i've got my blackberry data plan already , more active on twitter and bbm now (;

made a new h2h buddy on saturday , and you don't be too sad alright , i've gotcha' back (: i'll look for you if i need a h2h talk also yeah (;

P.S my computer has been down , so i can't start my blogging life again anytime soon , till then , shalom (:

- A change always takes time to adapt