Am I Dead , Yet ?

I Think I Suck , A Lot .

It Has Been A Good Saturday , But No , I Don't Really Enjoy Most Of It ; I Slept In Today , Having Completed Trevor's Homework Last Night , And I Woke Up To Congee Breakfast (: My Mum Is So Good To Me , Love Her Super Muchies :D Had A Rather Quiet Morning , Before Heading For Lunch With family , At Toa Payoh ; Time At Trevor Was Fun , As There Was The Youth Olympics Event Downstairs , They Played The Silly Song JJ Lin Sang , And Trevor Shouted ' Shut Up ! ' Toward Them , And Rachel Had A Good Time Telling Stories About Complaining About Public And Government ;P

Went Home After That , Before Coming Out Again To Hunt For Another Part Of The Gift . Super Sad That I Missed The Promotion , Kinda Regret It ; Went Home Again After That , Before Heading Off For Cell Group ; Met Xavier At Serangoon , Before Heading For Lorong Chuan Together . Met Up With A Few Others Before Walking Toward Jacqueline's Place , Which Is Awesomely Huge , But Deep Inside After An Alley ; Heheh Cell Group Was Fun , And Fellowshipping Afterward Was Even Better :P Can't Wait For Barbecue Next Week ! Nicolette Has Been Urging The Guys To Be More Gentlemen-Like , And I Think I'll Read Up More On Catering And Being Gentlemen-Like ;D

Heheheh Wilson And I Sent Cheryl Home , Before Heading Home Together , As Usual (; I Had To Kill Off The Usher Guy , Who Has Been Asking Me To Go For The Usher Trial , And Not That I Don't Wanna Serve , But I Don't Like Ushering /: And I Don't Like Dressing Smartly . I'm The Super Casual Type . Reached Home , Gonna Hit My Bed Soon , Before Waking Up For Service Tomorrow . Gonna Bring Eileen Some Chocolates , In Return For Her Pinching Services , And Since I Can't Bite Them , Yet ):

I've Gotta Find Confidence , Through God , And Then Through People , And Then Through Myself . Hockey Has Never Mattered So Much Before , And It Will Matter Much More From Now ; BoonKiat Oh BoonKiat , You Can Do It , Yes You Can !

This Is The End To My Saturday , And I'm Glad To Put An End To It ;

I've Never Felt So Emotional Before , And I Don't Know Why Am I Feeling Like This . Seeing You Was Miserable , Because I Didn't Have The Guts And Face To Meet You . The Crash And Burn I Felt A Few Weeks Back , It Ain't There Anymore , And I Don't Know If It's Good Or Bad ; Maybe I'm Getting Used To Living Without Your Existence . The Talks We Had , About A Future So Bright , I Don't See It Happening , Because I Don't Feel Right About This .

I Suck At Making Friends , Though I've So Many Friends , But Only A Minor Manage To Make Me Commit My Time On Them . And I'm Confident That It'll Last . But As For You , I Don't Know What To Say . You Might Be Hating Me When You Read This , But I Can't Really Do Much . I Do Treasure The Times , But I Can't Possibly Live In Those Happy Old Times Forever , I've Gotta Move On . The Plans We Had , The Talks We Did , Never Looked So Empty . Just When We Were So Close , We Crashed . Maybe I Should Have Tried Harder ;

Sad To Say , Maybe It's Time . You Wait For Me , Just Awhile More , And I'll Disappear After That . Yes You Can Blame Me For Giving Up After All , But I'm Also Human , I Have A Life To Live . I Don't Know What I'm Saying , Maybe I'm Just Crazy .

But Remember I Have A Secret Belief That We'll Overcome The Mountain-High Odds , Although Hopes Look Dashed ; And My Belief Hangs On Thin Air Today , Because I Don't See Progression In This . Talk Is Indeed Cheap ,

- Among Those Whom I Like Or Desire , I Can Find No Common Denominator , But Among Those Whom I Love , I Can : All Of Them Make Me Laugh